Queendy's funeral at RHCCC today

after the stage of feeling shock ... the mind is clear ... the heart is heavy, but a good kind of heavy

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Many many years ago, when I was still in Nexis - we used to have our fellowship in the Sanctuary. Every quarter, we also have celebration, a big music night event.

Today, in the same Sanctuary, we celebrated the life of Queendy in music and dance! The funeral was planned very well, even in such a short time and such great pain. Queendy is truly a charismatic leader. She brought many friends from different churches together once again.

She encouraged me to Truly be Bold and Live out the Passion inside of me.
She was an legendary artist, energetic leader, faithful servant of the Lord.
It was truly peaceful to reflect in the music, to remember you and to reflect on how I am going to live my life for the days to come.

"I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds." (John 12:24 NIV)

In your funeral, you brought back many friends, from many different churches all together to worship the One True God. You helped me to piece back together the two worlds of churches (RHCCC vs. DMBC) and reconcile with the memory of my past in a new self in Christ. Accepting the part of me which I tended to repress feelings, the part of me that was maybe pride and those friendship and relationship with people which I refused to accept because I felt that our interests, styles and ways of communication were different.

I was really out spoken in the past (because I didn't know much), and I became really really gentle and soft in DMBC, because I found my true self and the environment that so kind that I didn't even need to fight or strive.

Neither way is a state that I am satisfied with. I need to use all the resources I have now to glorify God. With the gifts and passion that I am given, you've inspired to me speak up and be bold last year when I met you for the last time at Refeel playback workshop. Thank you for giving me confidence to live out the life Christ has called me to! And at the same time, walk humbly with God.

I will love others and live for Christ.

"It is better to go to a house of mourning than to go to a house of feasting, for death is the destiny of every man; the living should take this to heart." (Ecclesiastes 7:2)

Queendy, thank you for the peaceful stillness that led us to experience God in intimate way today.

"Well done, thou good and faithful servant ... Enter thou into the joy of the Lord." (Matthew 25:21)

Although I don't know you well, thank you for your encouragement. I will live my life remembering the inspiration you've given me. I will try my best. We will meet again in heaven.

In Christ Jesus name, Amen.

不論我往那裡去　求祢與我同行
因祢的同在 是我蒙恩的確據
即使我身在曠野 只要得見祢面
有祢的同在 在黑暗中我得見光
在祢榮耀中在祢榮耀中　
所有的一切不再重要 轉眼已成空　
我別無所求 我別無所求
只願祢同在永遠停留

"I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will ahve the light of life." (John 8:12)