in tune / attune

Father Lord has been good to me....

everytime when I'm reading the materials, this strong sense of feelings came to me ...

the assigned readings are So good, so rich ... reading them is just really really good and I felt that they are shaping and transforming me .... to becoming more stable, focus and attune to the practical reality and most importantly, my own heart and mind. This feels very new to me.

I often feel like things are good enough...like I'm thankful...for things are really good. What surprises me is the room that's right there for growth, and things can be Even better.....

yeah....I was very shallow.....hence, I always think things are at their best right now...

I didn't know...........relationship can grow...relationship can deepen.... and I didn't know growing as a person, doesn't just mean growing old....but....growing richer, growing in knowledge, and experiences lead to depth in character and ability to find things that are more interesting.... .... I didn't know.

I felt so touched everytime.......when I get to read what I'm reading now

Henri Nouwen - The Genesee Diary
Richard J. Foster - Prayer - Finding the Heart's True Home

yeah, I would think that they're boring material....but it just surprises me how interesting and how rich they are....

I'm on the 2nd last chapter of The Prayer.....

off to type all these feelings....coz.............the material is so rich...it helps me to connect all my senses, and experiences in the past together...

memory kept coming in and I connect all the dots in the past and saw my memories and experience in new light and perspecitves.....

The material are so rich that I felt like I am going to explode......

message with Mel:

me: mel, how r u?
Melodie: good! yummy family dinner... and ice cream and cake you?
me: hee hee...happy birthday in 2 hours
i am doing well, thank you.......i am reading and when I msg you...I felt like I'm going to explode because......all my feelings and senses come alive and my memories and experience come rushing in......and yet, I connect the dots in new light and new perspective...
Melodie: :)
me: seeing things in the past in fresh eyes for the first time....
Melodie: you're soo passionate!
me: I was almost overwhelmed.....