I admit

I admit that I had not concretely achieved anything in the past year of 2008, other than I have been receiving a lot, absorbing a lot of new experiences, including trusting in the Lord for His gracious providence and guidance for my trip to China, the learning of trust has definitely bring the relationship to a new height, and for myself a transformation of maturity!!

2 Timothy 1:7 "For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline."

A greater assurance of my identity, determination to achieve goals, confidence for myself of knowing who I am, growing older, and the most important of all ... my relationship with other people ... to care, and be cared for, provide and be provided with .... the interdependency is definitely deepening many insights and understanding of the essence of living ...

But ... I am still making so many people worrying about me ... for not putting forth fully what I could have provided to them.... (my family especially)

for not persevering ... for not training my body to stay fit to match the strong will and the strength of my soul. My uncertain career direction and other aspects of life do not demonstrate to people who really care about me to believe that I really know what I'm doing and what I needed and planned to do.

What can I do to change that? I know I can, as long as I set my mind to do it!

I can!

It is no longer enough to just being genuinely happy for myself ...

I.feel.obliged.to.make.my.parents.worry.less.about.me.hence.happier!

please stay strong, healthy and youthful!!

mom, I love you!