classes

I'm really touched by the lecture in Therapeutic relationship - I felt that what I can describe of the lesson with Brian Cunningham and the class as a whole will not do justice to the class experience.

I felt that something was dissolving inside of me, the new knowledge that I received was not just knowledge but something that build me up as a person, strengthening and connecting in deeper dimensions and in new ways. A language of love that is not abstract, but something very practical. When this is integrated into the well-meaning beliefs, it becomes a living experience - profound and simple. It's very very great.

Thank you, Father.

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Chapel Experience yesterday was phenomenal –
Praise songs were moving – contemporary rock band =)
The Greatness of God
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uA9UR1lda7w&feature=related

And no sky contains
No doubt restrains, all You are
The Greatness of Our God
I'll spend my life to know
And I'm far from close
For all You are
The Greatness of Our God

There is none like you

There is none like You
No one else can touch my heart like You do
I could search for all eternity long
And find there is none like You

Your mercy flows like a river wide
And healing comes from Your hands
Suffering children are safe in Your arms
There is none like You

Not only because I get to see the speaker from Urbana ’06 again – his message on Hebrew 11:1-6 was clear and precise –
Being sure and certain of what we hope for
Faith that leads to action
Explanation on the Doctrine of Creation, Salvation and Sanctification (verses 2 - 5)
Be willing to let God help us to Holy Living so that we can be used by Him in unimaginable way.

The clarity and precision and courage from the message transferred to us.

Devotion and Prayers

to grow in sensitivity towards other people =)
And my mom urges me to grow in maturity
yep yep, growing in maturity while maintaining my natural spontaneity
and....Sigh, I'm SO embarrassed for my grammatical mistake.....striving for improvement in this area!!!

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A commentary quote that touches my heart while I studied a poem in the Bible last night -

"So often when we say "I love you" we say it with a huge "I" and a small "you". We use love as a conjunction instead of it being a verb implying action." - Anthony Bloom (Beginning to Pray, p.12)

"A couple who make a good marriage," writes Wendell Berry, "and raise healthy, morally competent children, are serving the world's future more directly and surely than any political leader, though they never utter a public word."

I'm thankful for my parents who raised me up!

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School is so busy, and I don't have much time to blog - didn't have time to write down Every single thing that I learn, but okay, I hope my learning can reflect on my paper... I don't know if I have enough time ...I'm chasing every min and sec. before Dec. to finished the required reading!!!

I really hope that I can do it!!! Devotion and Prayers....

Do likewise

This week, also through thinking about the Scripture John 10, I learned what it meant to clearly present a message when I studied “voicing” with my piano teacher. When I was asked to play a piece of music, it seems like the main theme came out richer, clearer, and more communicative when I play according to the score, without adding any addition of my own =) I was encouraged to "speak only as the Word was received", "live accordingly to the Way that I was taught" and "do likewise" following Jesus’ example.

Let the music, let my living...speak for themselves.

...as spoken...

After piano class with David - after playing Rachmaninoff - an epiphany

A clear message I received, I present
not based out of my own interpretation, or intelligence
a clean, clear message

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in my study, I learn that if I am not able to position myself, I'll be shaken very easily. so I must stand firm in the Word that I receive, and live it out - not my own edition of the message

"do likewise"
"live accordingly"
"speak as received"

position myself either in humility or with great pride
thinking about my own motive or for the benefits of others

these will be my choices to make! so what will I do?

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As I am learning to put on my new self, I learn all over again, how to listen, how to speak, and how to present - This requires great attention, concentration and focus; and this is where perseverance will come in.

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there could be many things going on simultaneously in the music, harmonizing etc. but there is one clear voice that will stand out. - a simple, clear voice

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The ability to segregate the differences voices in a piece of music, help me to stay calm, and use my head rather than relying solely on emotion :)

yep

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this week is a week of Grace - there are lots of things going on at shcool and yeah, the bonding with my schoolmates is quite interesting - we do need one another.

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From Nodame Cantabile -
"Make performances that take people by the heart!"

The lonely road

Today chapel's topic is on "the lonely road" - Eugene Peterson's conference day. Although I didn't attend the conference, I got to listen to a sister who shared her own experience in the chapel.

depression, feelings of isolation, attack, hurts that go on in the church...afterall, it's not so uncommon; and yeah, I don't feel as lonely anymore because many people travel on the same path - those feelings are valid, but we are not isolated - there are people out there who do understand, and even more so, they need our support. hm...

hymn of the day:
You are my strength when I am weak
You are the treasure that I seek
You are my all in all

Seeking You as a precious jewel
Lord, to give up I'd be a fool
You are my all in all

Jesus, Lamb of God
Holy is Your name
Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name (x2)

Taking my cross my sin my shame
Raising again I bless Your name
You are my all in all

When I fall down You pick me up
When I run dry You fill my cup
You are my all in all

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Yeah, I don't handle stress very well, when I'm stress, I go crazy. (gotta make note of this) hm...and...yeah, I can't go against my nature too....when I don't sing, or when I don't laugh.....there must be something going on...hm.....(I think this is a new realization)

OK....
day 2 - present for my brother

happy birthday

day 1 present for my brother :)

feeling extremely unworthy and unqualified

in midst of these feelings...

I'll work hard in my study
focus
and follow when you want me to go and when you want me to stop

this is my conviction